Afi

Oh my god! my god this can't be happening!
god tell me, tell me this isn't real!
i can't believe all that i have
foreseen is finally happening.
i cannot for a single second stand the way i feel.
i always knew. i always saw it coming.
enveloped now, encased by my worst fear.
i've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing,
i never wanted to cease to
exist, just disappear. fear memories are all that lie ahead.
never have i felt so lost. memories dull my senses.
fear tragedy is all that lies ahead.
never have i felt so dead.
once felt so warm, no i'm fucking freezing.
i am the once embraced abandoned one.
i raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing;
no relief was mine, i was burnt, by the sun.

Oh my god
My god this can't be happening
God tell me, tell me this isn't real
I can't believe all that i have forseen is finally happening
I cannot for a single second stand the way i feel
I always knew, i always saw it coming
Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear

I've never felt the nausea of wanting to feel nothing
I've never wanted to cease to exist
Just disappear

Fear memories are all that lie ahead
Never have i felt so lost
Fear tragedies are all that lie ahead
Never have i felt so dead

Once felt so warm
Now i'm fucking freezing
I am the once embraced, abandoned one
I lifted my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing
No relief was mine, i was burnt by the sun

I feel so lost